Chapter Fifty Three: Kanye's Guilt About Death and his Need For the Right Girl

Mr. Kanye West just did a interview with People magazine where he talks about the guilt of his mom's passing and his need for kids with the right woman:

"I want to have kids," he tells PEOPLE. "But I want to have the right girl too – someone who really cares about me." Still, the savvy hip-hop star is no easy prey. "When I'm in a club, girls are super-calculating, planning every step," he says. West – speaking exactly a year and a day since the sudden death of his mother, Donda – said making his new album, 808's and Heartbreak, helped him deal with his sense of isolation. (It was a rough year for West. In addition to losing his mother, he also split with his fiancée, Alexis Phifer.) "It's lonely at the top," he told reporters Tuesday at a London listening party for the new album. "Losing my mom, having no woman in my life to support me – I feel like I'm on my own and can only express it through my music." And while admitting he was "depressed, down," West said several celebrities have helped him bounce back. "I ran into Beyoncé Knowles , Paul McCartney, [at the MTV Europe Music Awards and] I felt comfortable," he said. "Rejuvenated."

In Memory of Mom

One year after his mother's passing, West, 31, told PEOPLE that he's been profoundly changed by her death (due to complications following cosmetic surgery). "She influenced me to do exactly what I want to do," he explained. "With my mom's passing, I learned that ... you can't let people box you in. You gotta do what you want to do." It's a subject that, for a long time, was too sensitive to discuss. "I didn't do any interviews after my mom passed, I wasn't ready to speak about [it]," he said. "Now I'd rather talk it through than commit suicide. I'm super devastated." Cruelly, the rapper blames himself – or more specifically, his fame – for her death. "I feel like I moved to California, then my mom moved to California, and she did stuff she wouldn't have done if we'd stayed in Chicago," he said. "If I'd never made it in the music business, it never would've happened." And fame has brought complications to his own life. "I'm an alien. The only place I can be alone is my hotel room – I can't even go to the grocery store," West added. "But don't feel sorry for me – I just did a shoot for Louis Vuitton. Don't worry about me, I'll be okay in the end."

After all he's been thru he needs a strong woman that'll have his back.

Scene One: Electrik Red-Drank In My Cup

You may recognize these chicas as dancers in some of your fav artist videos but they recently got signed onto Island Def Jam and is working on their album with The radio killer hisself The Dream, Tho I must be honest and say this aint my fav song the video makes up and these girls seem cool as hell not manufactured like some female groups, so get into it If the dream is working witth them Im sure they ass gon churn outt some heat and become Vanity 6 circa 2008.Look out for em in the future they could dance, got personality, sound good and got mucho sex appeal and it aint only one hogging the mic no Beyonces or Nicoles over here-GET IN TUNE WITH BINKIE-MY FAV/LOOKKS LIKE SYLEENA JOHNSON BUT REMINDS ME OF KELIS, SARAH ROSETE-WAS ON TOUR WITH USHER AND ALSO IN COUNTLESS VIDS, LESLEY-PROMISE VID, AND NAOMI-YOU SHOULD CHECK HER OUT IN THE CANT TELL ME NOTHIN VID AND LIKE A BOY-ALSO CHECK OUT ELECTRIK RED'S YOUTUBE VIDS THEY COOL AS FUCK....

Chapter Fifty Two:Kanye X Estelle Performance

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LOVED THE WAY IT WAS SHOT MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS IN THE BUILDING, KANYE WEST AND ESTELLE AT THE EMA'S ILLLL LOOK AT THE BACKDROP OBAMA BABAYY!!!!!!!

Scene One: Pacman X Ms. Pacman was Always A Favorite Pasttime of Mine

I love the GREY/WHITE one crazyyy By Qayot-Im loving the interchangeable pieces where it forms into one and I can actually sleep on it.

Chapter Fifty One:Jadakiss feat Ne-yo-By My Side

Like this song alot always liked Jada

Chapter Fifty: Heartless (Animated video)-Kanye West

COOL BEANS

CHANGES-YOU READY THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN BLASTING ALL DAY

WE LIVED TO SEE A BLACK PRESIDENT- I WISH MY AUNT KIM WAS HERE TO SEE THIS, JULIUS, BIG LLOYD MY DADS FATHER,UNCLE WATSON -TUPAC, BIGGIE,AaLIYAH, LEFT EYE, LUTHER VANDROSS, MARVIN GAYE, MARTIN LUTHER KING JR, EMMIT TILL, ROSA PARKS, HUEY P NEWTON, MALCOM X EVERYBODY WHO DIED FOR THE CAUSE THE CIVIL RIGHTS MOVEMENT- TELL YOU WE'VE COME SO FAR- THATS JUST THE WAY IT IS THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME-CHANGE-SMILE-MY BLACK BROTHERS YOU CAN MAKE IT TO BE ANYTHING HOW MUCH INSPIRATION IS OBAMA--WOOOOHOOOO SMILES/TEARS TO EVERYONE THAT AINT MAKE IT TO SEE THIS DAY

This is Americas NEW Day-We Reflect-Were Celebrating

Congrats Again To The Obama's And The Biden's We have REAL LOVE IN THE WHITE HOUSE NOW!!!!!!!!!

PRESIDENT OBAMA'S ACCEPTANCE SPEECH

HE'S HONORABLE AND HUMBLE-MARTIN LUTHER KING YOU DIED NOT IN VAIN MY BROTHER, IVE HAD SOMEBODY TELL ME LAST NIGHT THAT THERE'S STILL GONNA BE NO CHANGE BECAUSE HE'S GONNA BECOME A PUPPET MIND YOU HE COULDNT EVEN VOTE BECAUSE THERE NOT A CITIZEN BUT NEVER MIND THAT LOL. ALL PRESIDENT OBAMA HAS TO DO NOW IS APPOINT THE RIGHT CONGRESS AND SENATE AND WORK WITH PEOPLE WHO WANT THE BEST FOR THE COUNTRY HE'LL FIGHT FOR A CHANGE AND A NEW OUTLOOK IN WASHINGTON. I HAVENT SLEPT ALL NITE IM STILL OVERWHELMED AND EXTREMELY HAPPY HEARING PEOPLE TALK ALREADY AND IT FEELS LIKE A NEW BEGINNING. THIS FEELS LIKE AFTER THE TWIN TOWERS HIT HOW WE AS AMERICAN PEOPLE CAME TOGETHER TO ACHIEVE AND OVERCOME SUCH A HARD TIME, PEOPLE SOUND REALLY HAPPY LOOK REALLY HAPPY AND IS ACTING VERY HAPPY-LIKE OBAMA SAID IN THE SPEECH HES GONNA BE HONEST AND SPEAK TO US AND ALSO LISTEN-I LOVE THAT MAN-I REALLY DO-AND IM HAPPY WE HAVE BARACK OBAMA AS THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES HE WILL REACH ACROSS THE PARTY LINES AND WE'LL ALL BECOME ONE-TO THE WHISTLES BLOWIN LIKE ITS LABOR DAY IN BROOKLYN OR THE PEOPLE MARCHING IN HARLEM SHOUTING FOR JOY AND THE PEOPLE IN TIMES SQUARE LIKES ITS NEW YEARS- TO THE PEOPLE IN KENYA DANCING HAPPYLY IN THE ROADS TO THE THOUSANDS IN GRANT PARK IN CHICAGO HEARING HIS VOICE AS PRESIDENT WE MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!-MY SOUL IS SO HAPPY AND ELATED

YES WE CAN and YES WE DID!!!!!!!!!!!

338 -156..Numbers that will forever ring in my mind, We did it this is the American Dream. President Barack Obama and Vice President Joe Biden, this is it its only the beginning The better man was Elected and Im proud to say I am a American. Country First and the country voted whats BEST. Im still in shock and Im speechless, my world stopped when I heard that Barack Obama is our 44th president of the United States and the first AFRICAN-AMERICAN PRESIDENT. All the things we went thru thru this history, getting hosed attacked by dogs getting told to sit in the back of the bus SEGREGATION PRESIDENT OBAMA ISNT ONLY ABOUT BLACK HES ABOUT WHITE , ASIAN, LATINA, INDIAN, TALL SHORT SLIM stop these doubts and lets work together TO MAKE PROGRESS AND MAKE THIS A COUNTRY THAT OTHERS LIVE N DIE TO COME TO THE AMERICAN DREAM IS ALIVE-HISTORY THAT IL TELL MY KIDS AND GRANDKIDS-BLESS ILL POST THE SPEECH LATER ON RIGHT NOW IMMA DRINK A DRINK AND HOPE FOR THE BEST YES WE CAN AND YES WE DID IT YALL-SO PROUD RITE NOW

BARACK OBAMA X JOE BIDEN 08 YALL READY

Today is the Day that we here a Clothesthecurtains have been waiting for and finally its here, from getting woken UP by numerous friends seeking a little phone company a7 o'clock in the morning in those long lines, Im feeling so good about today and the outcome but still I have this nervous feeling in my tummy cause up till last night there was still 5% undecided voters but I have belief and gut feeling that Barack Obama will be our president and like Jay-z said no one on this earth is perfect but work with the kid- I hear that- I dont wanna talk yall to death so say a prayer for Barack Obama and Joe Biden and lets work on our future with these men because you know they need our help this is just the beginning. HISTORY IS HAPPINING RIGHT NOW THE YOUNGER-OLDER GENERATION NEVER BEEN SO EAGER AND INTO SOMETHING LIKES THIS AND AGAIN A QUOTE FROM JAY-Z "OBAMAS RUNNING SO WE ALL CAN FLY" I HEAR THAT-TONIGHTS THE NIGHT LIKE BETTY WRIGHT LOL* REMINDER** DONT FORGET TO COVER UP THOSE BUTTONS AND/OR T-SHIRTS THEY CANT TAKE AWAY YOUR VOTE BUT YOU CANT WEAR YOUR STUFF AT THE BOOTH

Breaking News!!! Barack Obamas Grandma Passes Away

Barack Obama's grandmother, Madelyn Dunham, has died following a bout with cancer. She was 86.

Just hours before Election Day, Democratic presidential hopeful Barack Obama announced that his 86-year-old grandmother died Monday after a battle with cancer. The news comes a week after he visited Madelyn Payne Dunham in Hawaii after she fell seriously ill following a hip fracture. Here, he poses with her and his grandfather during the 1980s. Stanley Dunham died in 1992.

(Madelyn Payne Dunham was 86. Obama announced the news from the campaign trail in Charlotte, N.C. The joint statement with his sister Maya Soetoro-Ng said Dunham died peacefully late Sunday night after a battle with cancer.
They said: "She was the cornerstone of our family, and a woman of extraordinary accomplishment, strength, and humility. She was the person who encouraged and allowed us to take chances."

Obama learned of her death Monday morning while he was campaigning in Jacksonville, Fla. He planned to go ahead with campaign appearances.
The family said a private ceremony would be held later.
Last month, Obama took a break from campaigning and flew to Hawaii to be with Dunham as her health declined.

Obama said the decision to go to Hawaii was easy to make, telling CBS that he "got there too late" when his mother died of ovarian cancer in 1995 at 53, and wanted to make sure "that I don't make the same mistake twice."
The Kansas-born Dunham and her husband, Stanley, raised their grandson for several years so he could attend school in Honolulu while their daughter and her second husband lived overseas. Her influence on Obama's manner and the way he viewed the world was substantial, the candidate himself told millions watching him accept his party's nomination in Denver in August.
"She's the one who taught me about hard work," he said. "She's the one who put off buying a new car or a new dress for herself so that I could have a better life. She poured everything she had into me."

Obama's nickname for his grandmother was "Toot," a version of the Hawaiian word for grandmother, tutu. Many of his speeches describe her working on a bomber assembly line during World War II.

Madelyn and Stanley Dunham married in 1940, a few weeks before she graduated from high school. Their daughter, Stanley Ann, was born in 1942. After several moves to and from California, Texas, Washington and Kansas, Stanley Dunham's job landed the family in Hawaii.
It was there that Stanley Ann later met and fell in love with Obama's father, a Kenyan named Barack Hussein Obama Sr. They had met in Russian class at the University of Hawaii. Their son was born in August 1961, but the marriage didn't last long. She later married an Indonesian, Lolo Soetoro, another university student she met in Hawaii.

Obama moved to Indonesia with his mother and stepfather at age 6. But in 1971, her mother sent him back to Hawaii to live with her parents. He stayed with the Dunhams until he graduated from high school in 1979.

In his autobiography, Obama wrote fondly of playing basketball on a court below his grandparents' 10th-floor Honolulu apartment, and looking up to see his grandmother watching.
It was the same apartment Obama visited on annual holiday trips to Hawaii, a weeklong vacation from his campaign in August, and his pre-election visit in October. Family members said his grandmother could not travel because of her health.

Madelyn Dunham, who took university classes but to her chagrin never earned a degree, nonetheless rose from a secretarial job at the Bank of Hawaii to become one of the state's first female bank vice presidents.

"Every morning, she woke up at 5 a.m. and changed from the frowsy muumuus she wore around the apartment into a tailored suit and high-heeled pumps," Obama wrote.
After her health took a turn for the worse, her brother said on Oct. 21 that she had already lived long enough to see her "Barry" achieve what she'd wanted for him.
"I think she thinks she was important in raising a fine young man," Charles Payne, 83, said in a brief telephone interview from his Chicago home. "I doubt if it would occur to her that he would go this far this fast. But she's enjoyed watching it."

Stanley Dunham died in 1992, while Obama's mother died in 1995. His father is also deceased.
When Obama was young, he and his grandmother toured the United States by Greyhound bus, stopping at the Grand Canyon, Yellowstone Park, Disneyland and Chicago, where Obama would years later settle.

It was an incident during his teenage years that became one of Obama's most vivid memories of Toot. She had been aggressively panhandled by a man and she wanted her husband to take her to work. When Obama asked why, his grandfather said Madelyn Dunham was bothered because the panhandler was black.

The words hit the biracial Obama "like a fist in my stomach," he wrote later. He was sure his grandparents loved him deeply. "And yet," he added, "I knew that men who might easily have been my brothers could still inspire their rawest fears."
Obama referred to the incident again when he addressed race in a speech in March during a controversy over his former pastor, the Rev. Jeremiah Wright. "I can no more disown him than I can my white grandmother," he said.

Dunham was "a woman who loves me as much as she loves anything in this world but who once confessed her fear of black men who passed her on the street."
Still, much of who Obama is comes from his grandmother, said his half sister.
"From our grandmother, he gets his pragmatism, his levelheadedness, his ability to stay centered in the eye of the story," she told The Associated Press. "His sensible, no-nonsense (side) is inherited from her."

Madelyn Lee Payne was born to Rolla and Leona Payne in October, 1922, in Peru, Kan., but lived much of her childhood in nearby Augusta.
She was the oldest of four children, and she loved to read everything from James Hilton's "Lost Horizon" to Agatha Christie's "The Murder of Roger Ackroyd."
Dunham and her husband were "vicious" bridge players, according to her brother Jack. After retirement, the two of them would take island cruises and do little but play bridge and a more difficult version called duplicate bridge.

Associated Press Writer Nedra Pickler in Charlotte, N.C. contributed to this report.
Copyright 2008 The Associated Press. The information contained in the AP news report may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or otherwise distributed without the prior written authority of The Associated Press. Active hyperlinks have been inserted by AOL.
2008-11-03 16:41:33

RIP and I send my condolences to the Obama Family, I know he wanted her to see him win the election.So Sad.

Chapter Forty Nine: OMARION DANCING AS OLLUSION-KILLS IT

If youve been wondering what Omarion has been up to you know the kidd gets it in on the dancing tip my opinion no one is a smooth as this guy PERIOD. Well on the tube i seen O he is going as his alter ego Ollusion and is apart of the dance crew B.S.V. These people on here remind of what I grew up watchin On BCAT called Flex Entertainment if you were from brooklyn I know you had to have some knowledge of it some of the sickest dancers Brukkin Up on there my bigg bro Kha had a ill crew too. O Yea O cut his hair and I love it on him and his album Im waitin on I'm still a lil tight he did that album with bow wow but whateve check out the video.ITS HOTT!!!!!!!!! BrooklYN!!!!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

http://thevoguesociety.blogspot.com/-HIT UP MY PERSONAL FRIEND MO'S BLOG FOR COSTUME IDEAS-FROM THE FOLKS HERE AT CLOTHESTHECURTAINS WISH YOU A HAPPY HALLOWEEN-I CANT WAIT TO SPOIL THESE KIDS IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD WITH CANDY LIKE I WAS WHEN I WAS YOUNGER ENJOY.

Scene One:New AKon-vict Video- Im So Paid

AKON ft LIL WAYNE & YOUNG JEEZY - I'M SO PAID- NEW MUSIC VIDEO!

cool-It was alot of bullshit about this song cause of the trying time in our Economic situation but honestly do you want a bunch of depressing songs about Money-we have artists for that and from what I know Akon gives back and he has a right to make music n brag......lol Vote People dont forget

Chapter Forty Eight:Come Over- Estelle feat Sean Paul

These The vibes I like Love this song cool vid-STEAMY SEXYY, SEAN PAUL IS LOOKIN GOODD GREAT CHEMISTRY

Scene One: Yes Usher Yes-HUSH

Dont say nothin about your PARENTS STRUGGLING to KEEP UP WITH THEIR MORTGAGE FORECLOSURE THEN FOLLOWS, OR LOOKING AT THAT 401 k getting depressed everytime they see how there hard earned money is just wasting away about you not being able to attend SCHOOL cause you cant get a LOAN or your FAMILY MEMBER being newly diagnosed with CANCER and him not affording HEALTHCARE, or GAS prices, OR YOUR BROTHER OVERSEAS LOSING THEIR LIVES DAILY THESE ARE THINGS PEOPLE ARE GOING THRU-GO OUT AND VOTE MAKE A CHANGE OR DONT SAY NOTHING WHEN THINGS JUST STAY THE SAME-I PROVED ITS NOT ABOUT TALKING THE TALK I WALKED THAT SHIT OUT LIKE UNK

Chapter Forty Seven: LIVE YOUR LIFE

HERES THE FULL VID

Scene Five: Love Lockdown Remix done By LMFAO

I like these guys they seem like lots of fun, here is the remixed vid hahaha TECHNO ELECTRIC FEEL

HAD TO PUT UP THE MAKING OF I SWEAR HIS MOMS IS THE FUNNIEST AND REDFOO THE DUDE ON THE TOILET WAS PRICELESS THE END WAS HILARIOUS AWESOME LMFAO LOL

Scene Four: Julian's Mom takes time out to Blog over horrific loss of her son

Here's what Jennifer Hudson's sister had to say about the loss of her son on her blog earlier today:

"LETS SEE IM 29 YEARS OLD I HAVE ONE CHILD AND I'M ALWAYS BORED, I LOVE TO HAVE FUN EVEN START A LITTLE S*** HERE AND THEIR i HAVE TWO YOUNGER SIBLINGS MY SISTER IS JENNIFER HUDSON YES THE JENNIFER HUDSON AND MY BROTHER IS JASON,

I GUESS IT'S TIME TO UPDATE THIS WHEN I STARTED MY MYSPACE ALL OF THE ABOVE WAS TRUE , NOW BECAUSE I CHOSE TO DO WHAT WAS NATURAL TO ME AND LOVE SOMEONE , IT COST ME MY BEAUTIFUL FAMILY MY WONDERFUL BEAUTIFUL LOVING SUPPORTING MOTHER DARNELL, MY TRUE BLUE BABY BROTHER JASON , I LOVE U BIG BABY ...

AND LAST BUT NEVER NOT LEAST MY ONLY SON JULIAN , MY INNOCENT BABY ONE THAT WAS SHELTERED FROM ALL THE EVIL OIN THE WORLD BECAUSE WE LOVED HIM SO MUCH... BUT THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR LOVING SUPPORT, I KNOW SOME OF YAL HAVE YOUR OPINIONS AND YOU ARE ENTITLED TO THAT , LIKE WHY IS SHE LOGGING ON TO MYSPACE AT A TIME LIKE THIS , LET ME TELL YOU WHY I WAS HOPING THAT , THAT WAS A WAY TO MAYBE HELP ME GET MY SON, MY BABY THE ONE I CARRIED UNDER MY HEART FOR 8 1/2 MONTHS THE SON IT TOOK ME 21 HOURS OF LABOR TO BRING HERE THE SON I GREW TO KNOW AND LOVE FOR JUST A FEW MONTHS OVER 7 YEARS THATS WHY ...

AND NOW FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ACTUALLY CARED THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT , THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS , THANK YOU FOR POSTING HIS PICTURE ON YOUR PAGES AS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE THANK YOU... BUT HIS LIL SOUL IS AT EASE, I TAKE COMFORT IN KNOWING THAT JULIAN IS WITH MY MOTHER AND MY BROTHER AND MOST OF ALL THE LORD AND NOW HE'S MY ANGEL HE'S PROTECTING ME... ..

This is soo sad it's still surreal to me, but stay strong and hang in there your family has my prayers and all the staff at clothesthecurtains prayers also.